Writing - A Pathway to Peace

When The First 48’s filming of my brother’s (William F. Fenzau) homicide investigation resulted in a botched case and all charges dropped on the suspect, I became the driving force behind the continued investigation by the City of Miami Police and the Miami-Dade State Attorney’s Office.   My life depended upon getting the case to trial until my life depended upon finding a way to live in peace.

In the retelling of the Native American Legend, The Story of Jumping Mouse, by John Steptoe, a young mouse faces an onslaught of obstacles, sacrifices parts of himself to others, and laments that he is not the same mouse from when his journey began.   Each time Jumping Mouse lost another part of himself, he found courage by repeating the phrase, "there will be a way." Likewise, I  believed that eventually there would be a way to justice.

My identity of teacher and mother were my salvation. Over the years, I  transformed and manifested another identity, that of sleuth, or more descriptively, as one witness nicknamed me, "Hunter."  The transformation was ugly.  Eventually, like Jumping Mouse, I accepted how I changed and learned to fly.  I gave voice to the disillusionment without going deaf to the sprout of life breaking through.  

Writing and verbalizing are invaluable in expressing intense emotions.  The expression and articulation of a violent death helps survivors come to terms with the horror of what occurred and validate their and their loved ones experience.  Writing might lead to telling or telling might lead to writing.   Either way, the action of doing so transforms and allows the opportunity for peace to grow within and makes the difference between feeling trapped or free. This website is dedicated to re-authoring experience in one's own terms; finding strength, hearing one's own wisdom and living truth.