Traveling through the unresolved
One of the most profound vehicles for validating the impact of a homicide is a Victim Impact Statement (VIS). This important tool in the healing process is not available to survivors in unsolved cases. Your experience matters whether validated in a courtroom or not. Write your Victim Impact Statement for yourself.
Who was your loved one? Tell their story.
Who was he/she/they in your family? In your life?
Write the impact, the investigation, the engagement with the criminal justice system and changes to life that resulted therein. Who were you then? Who are you now?
The impact of an unsolved homicide is constant, the response evolves. The purpose of writing is to integrate and empower rather than disassociate and be controlled by the experience.
Notice when you feel triggered and stressed, when you feel supported.
When/where do feelings of defeat surface? What creates a release when those feelings arise?
Where did I start and where am I going now? Write your life and your response.
What “wants” do I have outside of the confines of the case going to trial?
What concerns take up mental energy: positive and/or negative?
Who or what defines success?
What do I think I am supposed to be doing as I advocate for justice?
What do I want to do?
How can what I want to do lead to my
well-being?
Develop Habits that Work for You
Change Your Relationship to the Pain
When The First 48’s filming of my brother’s (William F. Fenzau) homicide investigation resulted in a botched case and all charges dropped on the suspect, I became the driving force behind the continued investigation by the City of Miami Police and the Miami-Dade State Attorney’s Office. My life depended upon getting the case to trial until my life depended upon finding a way to live in peace.
In the retelling of the Native American Legend, The Story of Jumping Mouse, by John Steptoe, a young mouse faces an onslaught of obstacles, sacrifices parts of himself to others, and laments that he is not the same mouse from when his journey began. Each time Jumping Mouse lost another part of himself, he found courage by repeating the phrase, "there will be a way." Likewise, I believed that eventually there would be a way to justice.
My identity of teacher and mother were my salvation. Over the years, I transformed and manifested another identity, that of sleuth, or more descriptively, as one witness nicknamed me, "Hunter." The transformation was ugly. Eventually, like Jumping Mouse, I accepted how I changed and learned to fly. I gave voice to the disillusionment without going deaf to the sprout of life breaking through.
Writing and verbalizing are invaluable in expressing intense emotions. The expression and articulation of a violent death helps survivors come to terms with the horror of what occurred and validate their and their loved ones experience. Writing might lead to telling or telling might lead to writing. Either way, the action of doing so transforms and allows the opportunity for peace to grow within and makes the difference between feeling trapped or free. This website is dedicated to re-authoring experience in one's own terms; finding strength, hearing one's own wisdom and living truth.
Viktor Frankl
Traumatic bereavement is a singular journey that is benefited by the company of others. Some might find healing in support groups, others with individual counseling or with a trusted friend. Still others will turn to short or long-term use of psychiatric medicine, or find support in a religious community, or maybe even a community not related to bereavement at all, but where one feels seen and heard. Likewise, one approach for support may begin to fade in its effectiveness and necessitate a replacement. Traumatic bereavement needs a healthy container where it can be addressed, nurtured, expressed and honored. However, one size does not fit all.
This is the reason behind this section. My hope is that it offers enough options of support for bereavement after homicide that no one has to feel alone. It takes more than one root to support a soul.
Traumatic Bereavement Articles
Grief and Loss Organizations & Education
Supporting Resilience
Lyda Hill Institute for Human Resilience
Articles on Substance Abuse and Domestic Violence
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